Anna Wallde

I stopped wanting more

The day you were taken

Now I only want back what we had

Dreams no longer mean

What they used to mean

They used to be the reason

To get out of bed

Now they´re just entertainment

Totally shallow

Like me

The same on the outside

So different within

I live, survive

Breath

But the fields of dreams

That used to be

My soul

Is now colder than ice

And more dead

Than you will ever feel to me

In some ways I chose this

Still choose it every day

Greif can be a choice

Moving on can be optional

Because the fact of the matter is

That if I mourn you

Than it feels like you are here a little more

Not just a memory

Not just a part of my past

And the heartache reminds me

Allows me to recognize

That you are with me

In me

Your echoes are in my steps

I even sometimes speak your words

Instead of my own

And because of that

I am another

Fuller

But not complete

No, never complete

Complete is what we were

Together

When you existed

Outside of me

For all the world to see

Knowing this

Is it any wonder

That I chose to close my eyes

Enter that which is only you and me

The only world I will ever ask for

Where I never again have to face

The pain of knowing

That life seems to go on

As if you never existed

And in that I find my purpose

For what am I 

If not your footprint

Your mark

Undeniable proof

That you were here

And that is why I have to go on

Step away from the light

That beckons me to come

Lay aside the cares that no longer moves me

Be with you again

In your arms

Where nothing can ever separate us

And my heart no longer be cold and heavy

But warm and caring

This path is tempting

And I sometimes take a step or two on it

But I always turn back

Choose life

If living without you can ever be called that

Not because it´s what I want

But because I know

That the only way to make you proud

Is to do what I wanted

Before you went away

But I also know

That should the burden of this life

Become too heavy

The price too much to pay

You wouldn´t hold it against me

If I said enough

I know you could never be angry with me

For simply loving you too much